Night life --- rather -- life in the night @ office

I have worked in night shift in the past, now again situation repeated it's cycle with pressure in the organization i work. This time i would term this night shift as a little productive compared to my previous experiences.

Now regarding the squad int he night, it consists of a team of 20 to 30 people varying on day to day basis. The age group of people where between 20 - 35, the oldest being our Raju (thala :)). The squad consists of different skilled people, some can sleep as soon as the shift begins, some sleeps expecting that work will be in his court. The most bad thing of all these are the sounds of the snoring people around. Who are waked up when i try to locate who is the snorer.

I and T were the managers along with us there was an assistant manager and two team leaders for the whole set of people all managers were handling different account. I had a good control of team as the size of the team i was handling was small. My team is the final team that sends out the finished work out to customer. We have all the authority to return back the work back to the team mentioning what the mistakes were. My team along with me were happy to do this, i call me and my team as responsible team.

I liked to see the frown in the face of the people when i send back the work saying these are the problem as they deserve it......

I an not sure should i go back to the day turn as i will be in lot of pressure and unwanted discussions ....

will get back as soon as the cycle returns ...

Indian bureaucracy

I did not get visa due to Indian bureaucracy .... was a comment i heard over the phone when i was asking one of my know person from the Netherlands....

is his statement correct ?

I had to take a neutral stand here to judge on this, while recollecting how people behave in and around me, i immediately recollected one of my colleague telling me don't ask this to me .. this is not my work...

Even if there is a garbage lying no one is going to remove it unless a person who is assigned this task is there to remove it.... this reminds me of an incident i saw it in television, in a private channel there was a telecast of new film launch function for which Jackie Chan famous Hollywood actor was invited. When he was coming along with the other people to the venue there was some waste paper on the floor, he immediately walked towards the paper and dropped it in to the dustbin. This happened when all the politicians, actors, actress, media and most important million of people where watching it from all parts of the country.

What did this incident impact us and me, we had talked about this for few days and i write it on a blog but i still am not following it so we know where we are.....

every thing is great

i was seeing the social network .. i was impressed that i am seeing a movie that is talking about the Facebook...

the first scene where zuckerberg dates with his girl friend.... the content of the scene and the discussion was different .. but i had experienced the same with girls ... where i sounded stupid and the situation turned awkward ..

how does the business crop up and people around take advantage of it ....

i .. am always impressed by any one i see .. i think every one around are always great and i am crap..

so u could imagine how i felt seeing the movie .. i started writing this blog after i saw zuckerberg blogging about his girlfriend after their breakup..

i have never been what i want to be or in other words .. i did not know what i like and what i want to do ... i have failed to keep my self up ... in so many meetings and i kept on thinking what the others would think and what i will have to do to please them .. i steped down a lot towards satisfying and wining there heart ..this was always wrong ..

being inspired is easy ..working towards keeping up the inspiration and the hardwork towards acheving the result is difficult .. i still am waiting for 100 thousand lakh rupees to be dumped in to my living room by some gene ... so that i can live a good, comfortable and royal life and i am sure this is not going to happen... as i am not going to receive them and also not goiing to earn them unless i find my self who i am...

i would like to gearup and show the world who i am but i fear a lot the world would not accept me as a person and will challenge me as a person for which i need to work hard to get back to them saying this is it ... but i would still go ahead and keep nodding my head to who ever says this is right or wrong and i am still doing it and not sure will i be daring enough whether i could change ... is there any medicine to change this.. still beliving on miracles rather than hard work ...

i need to do the follwing ..

establish myself, by putting forth my thoughts and not fearing to loose myself in this world. where i am right now is not because of me .. i was like a person standing on the steps of a train and by mistake was pushed down by the people getting down in the right station.. i know i have brains and am very relectant to use it or put in strain to work hard to acheive it ...

will come up with ideas soon .. it was hard to find time to put in all my short falls together in a paper but got some time now .. i need to continue this daily .. so i know where are my problems and how do i over come...

in case by mistake some one reads till this last line .. pray for me so that i don't believe on miracles and should believe on reality..