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Saturday, January 15, 2011

every thing is great

i was seeing the social network .. i was impressed that i am seeing a movie that is talking about the Facebook...

the first scene where zuckerberg dates with his girl friend.... the content of the scene and the discussion was different .. but i had experienced the same with girls ... where i sounded stupid and the situation turned awkward ..

how does the business crop up and people around take advantage of it ....

i .. am always impressed by any one i see .. i think every one around are always great and i am crap..

so u could imagine how i felt seeing the movie .. i started writing this blog after i saw zuckerberg blogging about his girlfriend after their breakup..

i have never been what i want to be or in other words .. i did not know what i like and what i want to do ... i have failed to keep my self up ... in so many meetings and i kept on thinking what the others would think and what i will have to do to please them .. i steped down a lot towards satisfying and wining there heart ..this was always wrong ..

being inspired is easy ..working towards keeping up the inspiration and the hardwork towards acheving the result is difficult .. i still am waiting for 100 thousand lakh rupees to be dumped in to my living room by some gene ... so that i can live a good, comfortable and royal life and i am sure this is not going to happen... as i am not going to receive them and also not goiing to earn them unless i find my self who i am...

i would like to gearup and show the world who i am but i fear a lot the world would not accept me as a person and will challenge me as a person for which i need to work hard to get back to them saying this is it ... but i would still go ahead and keep nodding my head to who ever says this is right or wrong and i am still doing it and not sure will i be daring enough whether i could change ... is there any medicine to change this.. still beliving on miracles rather than hard work ...

i need to do the follwing ..

establish myself, by putting forth my thoughts and not fearing to loose myself in this world. where i am right now is not because of me .. i was like a person standing on the steps of a train and by mistake was pushed down by the people getting down in the right station.. i know i have brains and am very relectant to use it or put in strain to work hard to acheive it ...

will come up with ideas soon .. it was hard to find time to put in all my short falls together in a paper but got some time now .. i need to continue this daily .. so i know where are my problems and how do i over come...

in case by mistake some one reads till this last line .. pray for me so that i don't believe on miracles and should believe on reality..

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